TV chef and food writer Nigella Lawson broke down talking about life in front of the press and her split from Charles Saatchi, in an interview on the The Michael McIntyre Chat Show yesterday.
The 54-year-old opened up about her experiences during her television appearance, which is due to air on Monday, saying she feels as if she "had a layer of skin removed".
When asked about the scrutiny Lawson has come under over the last nine months since images emerged of her now ex-husband, Charles Saatchi, gripping her neck during a dinner in a restaurant in London, the star said, "I'm alive and I've found somewhere to live. I have had better times, it is spring and I am feeling better and I am very happy to be here".
"I have been alive for longer than you so I know life has its dips and it can get better and you can't fight it."
"I try not to live in the public sphere very much. You have your own life and you are the person inside.
"I really think if the major thing in your life is what people who don't know you think then you are living your life wrong.
"I'm not particularly guarded and I say and do some things I may regret later. But I would rather embarrass myself and be a bit idiotic sometimes than spend my whole life worrying about what people think."
Nigella has had a tough year having divorced husband, British businessman Charles Saatchi, in July 2013. In January, the couple endured a court battle where their former personal assistants were accused of fraud, spending hundreds of thousands of pounds on designer goods for themselves using company credit cards. During the three-week trial in January, Lawson was depicted as a habitual user of cocaine and after the trail she said she felt she was "maliciouslyvilified without the right to respond".
"The real truth is if you don't read things and don't get too involved it doesn't enter your bloodstream. If it doesn't enter you bloodstream you are not contaminated.
"I'm not an innocent, I understand how it works. I just don't involve myself. I don't speak and don't comment. I could say things and be indiscreet but I don't want to.
"What I have found is it has given me a far too sensitised reaction to newspapers. We all like gossiping in our own lives so I don't take a lofty view.
"I just perhaps feel having had a layer of skin removed I am more sensitive to other people's fortunes," said the star.
Lawson also revealed that when she was house hunting, she looked through the kitchens to see if her cookbooks were there on the shelf.
She also admitted she flew into rages when she was hungry, saying: "My agent says for women hunger is an emergency. If I am not full, I am both murderous and suicidal."
The Michael McIntyre Chat Show is on BBC1 on Monday at 10.35pm.
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