Bob Geldof has appeared on Lorraine Kelly's morning show and opened up about the reaction to his daughter Peaches Geldof's untimely death.
The singer told Lorraine that the grief is "intolerable", but his way of coping with it is to "go into organisation mode."
Mother-of-two Peaches Geldof died at the age of 25 on April 7th this year. Her cause of death was unconfirmed, but a toxicology report showed heroin was present in her system, and likely to have played a role in her fate.
Bob said "I've got to be very careful because this is still very raw. I'm walking down the road and suddenly out of the blue there’s an awareness of her, and I buckle, so I have to duck off into a lane and blub, then get on with it. I’d imagine that will be there for a long time"
Bob Geldof appearing on Lorraine Kelly's show Lorraine
He also spoke about how he has got back into songwriting and performing with his band The Boomtown Rats after his daughter's death: "It completely clears your head. I just get on a stage and go mad, but if I dwell on the words sometimes, I struggle through the song because they take on meanings which I never meant when I actually wrote them."
Referring to a song about a socialite who commits suicide, he said "If I really think about those words and usually I’m in the zone of that song, if I really think about it, it’s too bizarre, it’s too telling whether it’s about Paula or now whether it’s about Peaches, and stuff like that."
When Lorraine mentioned the public grief for the Geldof family following Peaches' death, he replied "People seem to think that they're involved with your life. Bizarrely, my life seems incredibly episodic, like a soap opera. I'm not aware I'm in the next scene until it happens, and the response to events that happen always takes me by surprise. But I have the get out that I play with a great band."
Speaking about his grandsons, Astala and Phaedra and how they will learn about their mother - he mentioned that he feels no connection with his own mother, having lost her at the age of "6 or 7", but that Peaches' husband Thomas Cohen and his family have been "amazing."
"I’m not sure that [the boys] will have this craving to remember their Mum, and I think that is healthy. They are young enough to be able to build emotional relationships away from the primary relationship with the mother.I don't want them becoming wrapped up in the Geldof life. It’s great in some respects, it’s appalling in other times."
Peaches Geldof with her son Astala
Bob also spoke about his decision to propose to his girlfriend of 18 years, Jean Marinne - "Things were very bleak, I didn’t want to rush it or anything, but I was going to do it anyway and I thought, 'We need to let some light into the room; some light into this air.'"
But Peaches' memory will not fade soon, Bob says. He spoke proudly about his daughter, saying "this young girl had made such an impact, especially on her generation" and referring to being recognised as her father, he said "I liked being Peaches Geldof’s Dad."
Words: Victoria Gray, Photos: Rex Features