“I made an asshole out of myself to a large group of people,” admits Chrissy Teigen.
Chrissy Teigen might be one half of the internet’s favourite couple, but she has always made a point of being honest about her relationship with John Legend (note to everyone: don’t ever refer to them as #relationshipgoals).
Now, in a new Twitter thread, Teigen has opened up about the moment she had a “jealousy-fuelled meltdown” on the set of one of her husband’s music videos – and highlighted how all-consuming (and irrational) feelings of envy can be.
“Fun fact, I had a jealousy-fueled meltdown visiting this video set and made an a**hole out of myself to a large group of people,” Teigen tweeted about the music video for Legend’s song, Green Light, with Andre 3000.
Naturally, people on Twitter had a lot of questions about the decade-old incident, so she conferred with Legend in a bid to help her remember the finer details.
“OK, after a brief refresh with John, I have pieced together small bits of information,” she wrote.
“It began with our friends (John’s managers and co-writers and a couple others) talking about how BEAAAAAUUUUTIFUL some of the women were… and they were! But in my mind, they not only were talking about it, they were talking about it on purpose to rile me up. Looking back and knowing how well I know them now, THEY WERE [DEFINITELY] RILING ME UP AND GETTING A KICK OUT OF IT.”
Teigen went on to describe the moment she got very upset, writing: “I was watching the monitor with all the guys and someone, I can’t remember who said, ‘Oooooo look at that girl with John, ooooooh!’
“So, I watched the monitor like a psychotic tarantula hawk and in my mind, oh, he was in trouble.”
Explaining her feelings, Teigen reminded fans that she first met Legend when she starred as his love interest in the song Stereo – an encounter which took place just a year before production began on the Green Light video.
“Keep in mind, John and I met on a video. I was that girl!” she wrote. “I know how this s**t works! He probably laughed at something she said. And in my mind it was some GRAND conversation I was conjuring up. They were probably just talking about craft services honestly but in my mind she was like ‘hey we should bone’ and he was like ‘haha f**k yeah!’”
Things eventually reached a head as Teigen continued to watch the exchange on the monitors, prompting her to storm off the set in a temper.
“A few more shoulder touches and laughs with her later, I lost it,” she wrote. “Anger turned to fleeing the set and getting a hotel room. The director (ALAN FERGUSON!) was baffled. Everyone was.”
Thankfully, though, the experience didn’t break the couple.
“I was just a jealous, angry 22 year old,” added Teigen. “I’m better now. BUT DONT TEST ME!”
While things worked out for Teigen and Legend, it is no secret that jealousy can have a poisonous effect on a relationship. As Relate – a charity providing relationship support throughout the United Kingdom – notes, it can provoke feelings of suffocation, insecurity and isolation, all of which are “likely to cause tension and resentment to build over time”.
The solution, they say, is for the jealous party to take a step back and make an effort to understand why they feel the way they do.
“Try to become aware of your feelings and start to think about what is making you feel this way,” the charity advises. “Try to ascertain if they are legitimate feelings by considering the reality of your current relationship – or whether they are feelings that are unresolved from past relationships. Think about whether the jealousy is actually being caused by anything your partner is doing, or whether there are deeper issues at play here – issues concerning trust, commitment or communication.”
Relate adds that finding the time to talk through what you’re going through with your partner is definitely a step in the right direction, and the charity suggests “setting aside a little time when you’re not already feeling emotional - and really listen to what each other has to say”.
You can talk to one of Relate’s trained counsellors for free using their Live Chat service here.