“I had absolutely no value for myself… and it quickly brought me to a real crisis point,” says Demi Moore.
Demi Moore opened up about a dark time in her live when she found herself “spiralling down a path of real self-destruction”.
Speaking at the Beverly Hilton Hotel, where she was honored with the Woman of the Year Award by Los Angeles-based women’s recovery centre and sober living program Peggy Albrecht Friendly House, Moore explained: “I feel like there’s a defining moments in our lives that shape who we are and the direction we go and early in my career.”
The two-time Golden Globe nominee continued: “I was spiralling down a path of real self-destruction and no matter what successes I had, I just never felt good enough. I had absolutely no value for myself, and this self-destructive path very quickly brought me to a real crisis point.”
Thankfully for Moore, two people who she “barely knew” decided to stage an intervention – one which was more like an “ultimatum”.
“Unless I was dead, I better show up,” she quipped, according to Variety, before adding that she was given “a chance to redirect the course of my life before I destroyed everything.”
“Clearly they saw more of me than I saw of myself,” Moore noted. “And I’m so grateful because without that opportunity, without their believing me, I wouldn’t be standing here today.”
Noting that “no matter what success I had I just never felt good enough,” Moore said: “Life is certainly not a straight line and I think everybody here has dealt with not feeling good enough at some point in their lives.
“I know that in a moment of great struggle for me, I reached out to a wise teacher and I expressed my fear that I wasn’t good enough and she said, ‘You will never be good enough but you can know that value of your worth. Put down the measuring stick,’
“So today, I put down the measuring stick and I thank you for this beautiful acknowledgment and the opportunity to know the value of my worth.”
Later, after her speech had concluded, Moore shared a post on Instagram dedicated to those who have supported her throughout her career, and in her darkest times.
“So grateful for the love and support of friends and family even my furry family!” Moore wrote, alongside a photo of her sitting on a patio deck surrounded by her puppies.
She also thanked her three daughters – Rumer, Scout, and Tallulah – writing: “Seeing your beautiful smiling faces […] are what makes my heart worth beating. Everything I do is for you!”
Moore added: “Thank you to all my friends who supported me and @friendlyhousela but who could not be there yesterday. Your support is what allows Friendly House to do the amazing work they do helping women find recovery and reclaim their lives with dignity.”
Finishing on a more sombre note, though, the Empire actress explained that she had purposefully waited to share her story out of deference to the tragic mass-shooting at the Tree of Life Synagogue in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, on 27 October, which left 11 people dead and six others injured.
“Yesterday’s unspeakable act in Pittsburgh left me gutted and frozen, completely unable to even think about sharing my gratitude for such a beautiful event,” Moore wrote.
“My heart goes out to the families. I believe in the power of LOVE! These are the moments we need to inject greater loving compassion acceptance and understanding.”